On a visit to Taormina on Sicily, our hotel was situated so that we could stand on our balcony and see Mount Etna in the distance. I told my husband how great it was that the locals had strung colored lights down the mountainside. Ron said, “It’s not lights. It’s lava.” I said, “No way is that lava! Look at the colors. It’s lights!” The next day, we made our way to the top of Mount Etna. And everywhere were flowing streams of burning molten lava. Even when someone offered to cast me a lava-ashtray to take home, I still had trouble believing it.
Ron always gets this stuff right. So no one wants to play geography games with him. The really good thing about him though is that when something like this happens, he doesn’t rub it in my face. I’ve asked him why, and he says that staying supportive of us is always most important.
Staying supportive of people who are acting in ways that drive us crazy can be a challenge. Ron’s told me the story of his first delivery as an OB-GYN resident. It was a quiet night on the ward, and he was sitting in the nurses’ station, where they were teaching him to knit. They heard the elevator ping, announcing a new patient. And a foreign man burst through the doors, yelling “Help! Help!” while pushing his rapidly crowning wife in a wheelchair.
Everyone went into quick action, including Ron who would finally get to practice what he came to medicine for – to deliver babies! The husband had a different plan, though. When Ron tried to check his wife’s progress, the man took off his coat and threw it over her so that Ron couldn’t see her, while yelling in broken English about the inappropriateness of a strange man looking at his wife. What was Ron to do? First, he calmed the man by assuring him that everything would be OK. And then he delivered his first baby by poking around under a raincoat without looking.
I often wonder how Ron can stay so calm, allowing people around him to save face. He says that when disruptive energy comes at him, it helps to focus on the cause of the distress rather than whether he should react with the same type of energy – returning anger for anger or hurt for hurt. He has a strong belief that why people do what they do matters more than what they do. And that when people lose it, the most important issue is their need to be supported – much more important than whether they’re acting as a catalyst for him to feel offended.
I try to do the same. I like to tell my sons: “Make your partner right,” and “Make your child right.” But I used to catch myself making Ron wrong. I’d let him know when I believed he was wrong or when he’d done something incorrectly, and I’d nag him when he’d promised to do something but hadn’t done it. And it was really working against me, because I kept activating what I focused on and getting more of what I noticed. Eventually, I realized what I was doing. Firing missiles at Ron wasn’t resolving whatever frustration or resentment I felt. And it was slowly eroding our relationship.
How did I change? I began to look for ways to resolve my issues without involving Ron. Plus, I knew that my way of relating with him had more to do with my beliefs than with him. So I managed my perception of him, keeping it positive, knowing that he’d become whatever I chose to see. I took a softer stance toward him by focusing on what I liked. And that brought out the best in both of us and resulted in better feelings. Now, I’m almost always able to focus on Ron’s best qualities. At least that’s my goal. And I feel protective of his self-esteem. I make him right.
But sometimes, I just get ornery. That’s when it’s important to be honest and name the name of what I’m doing. “I’m acting b*tchy. It’s not personal. I just need a chance to blow off steam. Can you handle it?” I’m responsible for my emotions – no one else is responsible, least of all Ron. And it’s not appropriate for me to make him wrong so that I can justify my outbursts. So I need to get Ron’s agreement that it’s OK for me to vent. “I want a turn to vent now. Can you just listen to me? I’m not looking for a solution. I just need to unload.” If he says, “I can’t handle it right now,” I have to stop and find a different outlet. If he’s up for it and gives me the green light, I can go ahead. But it’s still my responsibility to safeguard both of us – because staying supportive of us is always most important.
Expressing appreciation does more than anything else to create positive change in relationships. So I make it a point to tell Ron when and why I feel grateful.
When my son was in university, he wrote a birthday card to Ron, who’s his stepfather, and he really nailed the appreciation-thing: “You inspire me to be better, including getting on my feet and enjoying life within my means. I use you as a role model when I see others being wasteful or avoiding work. Because of you, I enjoy working and saving. I pack my lunch because you pack your lunch. I ride my bike to work because you ride your bike. If everyone had your character, sense of duty and generosity, the world would be better off.”
This story originally appeared on Grace de Rond